O Lord, it hurts so deeply when
Someone I love walks away,
Cuts me off, puts up a wall, and
I’m left with nothing but questions…
What made the relationship so
Utterly, unrevocably, unbearable for them?
All I remember is one impatient exchange,
Then it seemed like no time at all and
They were gone!!!
I feel absolutely bereft.
I found myself scrambling to reconnect,
Only nothing is working.
All my attempts meet unresponsiveness.
A part of me is crying
Like an abandoned child,
While another part is so enraged
That I am not allowed…
Not allowed to make amends,
Not allowed to talk things through,
Not allowed to apologize even
For all the things I thought
I could possibly have done wrong…
Then I am spent, worn, exhausted,
Thinking, praying,
“Jesus, please help me let this all go.”
Maybe one day I can,
But right now…
I’m still grieving.

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