There are moments when I wonder if I will ever have time to do what I really want to do. Then I stop to examine the thought and realize that if I really want to do something, I will make time for it to happen. Otherwise I am kidding myself. That thing I think I want to do can’t be all that important if it keeps sliding down my priority list–things like reading some book or magazine article, or finishing some project I’ve been putting off. I’d like to do them, but other things come up that are more important or that simply must be done as part of maintaining my home, like laundry or dishes. Hanging out with my husband and kids is up towards the top of the list. If I have to choose between doing some recreational activity just for me or spending time with one of the family members, my recreational activity will be put off again and again. Now there’s homework to contend with. I chose to commit to education, so recreational reading definitely falls on the back burner now! I’m so tired from the mental and emotional drain of work and home duties and expending myself on someone else… I’m not sure when I can get those “someday” activities accomplished. Still, I’m tired, but happy. I’ve been blessed in so many different ways with a place to live and clothes to wear and food to eat, and someone to come home to every evening. What more could I ask? God is good and He has been, even through all the tough times. I just need to sense His presence and hear His voice so that I can walk daily where He wants me to walk. Maybe with a little time management and Holy Spirit guidance I can still get a few extracurricular thing done on the side a little at a time.

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