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Dark to Daybreak

In the dark midnight of wounded sorrow
Rage runs rampant through bitter streets,
Rushing between high, impassive buildings,
Ramming itself along like a flood,
Seeking weaknesses and gaps to
Push through, fill up, tear apart,
Until reaching the receptive reservoir of forgiveness.

Love opens up, drowning the fury in its depths.
As anger pours in, living water overflows
Sending healing back through the same channels,
Quenching rage, soothing bitterness,
Softening the cold, hard buildings until
A community glows with renewal and
The darkness disappears, slipping away
In the dawn’s revealing light of life as
Daybreak bursts forth with new-found hope!

The Gift

I am overjoyed with the gift of my children.

Every day they fascinate me in some new way.

I could stare at their pictures all day long,

Because of the pleasure I get from their

Beautiful smiles and shining faces, bright with love.

It awes me sometimes that I get to be their mom.

There are the typical sibling battles,

But incredible loyalty to each other.

Just when I think that I know them well,

Something new crops up to surprise me—

Sometime serendipitous, sometimes sorrowful,

Always another reason for me to love on them.

I have laughed and cried, rejoiced and grieved,

Giving them up to Father God over and over again.

The price of parenting these precious packages—

Filled with so much earth, so full of heaven’s grace—

Is measureless in volume, yet nothing

Compared with all the love I want to pour out and

That they give back so effusively.

I am overjoyed with the gift of my children!!!

Grace and Glory

Picture perfect sky hangs frameless, timeless
As I stand suspended, clear of thought,
Caught up in the blending of colors and shapes
In a three-dimensional serendipitous vertigo.

My heart floats in the spin, buoyed up
By the delightful distraction of vision—
A glimpse of the angelic realm through
A crystal window of earthly beauty.

A sense of destiny pierces me until
I reverberate with inexpressible wonder.
The Master displays a splinter of heaven’s splendor
So I can partake of glory for a moment.

The colors and shapes fade again and
My spiritual awareness dims
While a yearning grows in me to return
To the bosom of Father God.

Picture imperfect me…
I need to be covered completely
In His grace and glory.

Butterfly of Hope

butterfly

Delirious symphony whispers dreams behind languid walls
Frantic for release like a butterfly beating its wings
Against the walls of finely spun thread which bind it.
The longer the struggle, the frailer the walls,
The stronger the dreams, the louder the symphony,
Till breathless beauty breaks forth in
Dazzling colors, full of the music that made them bright.

 

Freedom of flight awaits the persevering soul
With an undreamt magnitude of grace and glory
Lighting the atmosphere for those who follow—
Who dream, who need to know that dreams can come
Thundering through the twilight of despair
(Those finely spun threads of habitually dashed hopes).

Ah, beautiful butterfly bound in secrecy,
Fight on for that which is your due…
Boundless hope and joy of being
That touches the hardest heart with its unexpectedness.
Your masterpiece of dreams fulfilled bursts forth
And gives strength to other, still struggling, dreamers.

Anna

I knew you then, so long ago
When it was just us—two outside loners
We became our own private “in” group
You came to my house, but
More often, we were at yours
Talking about the latest Trek novel
(I got to proofread the most recently
Composed chapter in yours)
While John Williams’ movie soundtracks
Reverberated from your stereo

I was fascinated with all your endeavors.
You were writing a book,
Coloring a huge poster with medieval dot art,
Researching the genealogies of kings and pharaohs…
Aspirations abounded—
Art, writing, movie-making, history—
I was a fan!

It was our senior year.
AP English came and went.
So did graduation.
I left for summer camp
Already engaged to be married.
Your folks moved and you disappeared…
Off to college, I think.

We wrote for a while, then lost touch.
I don’t know you now—
Where you’ve gone, what you’re doing—
But I knew you then…
When we were friends.

Whirlwind

Quiet summer evening in the aftermath of storm…
A whirlwind of four went through my life.
Twelve days later, the silence is deafening.
Madcap vacation days with their pleasant chaos
Flew by at the speed of sunny happiness—
Stretched out in their strange idiosyncratic “now�
That nostalgia makes too short, too quick,
Too brief through history’s telescopic view.
For a while, we were in each other’s pockets,
Noisy with our ready opinions, comebacks,
Bouts of laughter, and quick tempers.
The road was interminable, but beautiful,
As all of us gaped at landscapes we weren’t used to.
Even knowing we couldn’t capture it all,
We tried with our small digital screen,
Snapping glimpses, moments, bird’s eye vistas
For memory… and fun.
How many shapes can the clouds make?
How many angles can you see flat land from?
How many times can you shoot the same giant rock
As you zoom past at 70 miles an hour?
First there were green trees, rolling hills and wide lakes,
Then flat, featureless pasture as far as the horizon could reach.
Then the canyons, hills, and the painted desert
Intruded with myriads of color mixtures.
Shades of red striped past us until it all
Blended back into the mountain forests, and
Sloped away again into a different kind of desert, full of plants…
I thought the shades of brown and spots of dark green
Contrasted beautifully against the pale blue sky,
While the mountains and canyons played
Hide-and-go-seek with our car and camera
Until the grandeur of it all overwhelmed the senses.
We retreated to each other again,
Hiding our small storm from the too large landscape.
Suddenly, it seemed, we were back,
At the end of the interminable road,
At the end of the vacation.
The dust of the whirlwind settled and they were gone.
Although this evening is quiet, my mind is not.
I ponder over every memorable moment like a treasury of gems,
Placing them on the shelf in some fashion
That makes no sense to anyone else but me.
…And I wait for my whirlwind to return and stir them all up again.

Composing

To create thoughts, ideas,
Feelings, things shared without boundary.
There is music in the simplicity of silence—
Hands still, heart full, eyes closed.
There are words on the blank page
Waiting, like unpopped popcorn,
To burst across the consciousness and land
In some format that makes sense.
There is beauty unrecognized, but present,
In every object, person, or movement,
Brushing against vision trying to gain attention. 
To channel some portion
Of infinite creative force into finite bytes
Comprehensible enough to set imagination soaring.
…And I soar…
Viewing vast vistas with the eyes of my imagination,
Feeling the fantastical flow of
Chords and harmonies and melodies.
Unsung and unplayed, they fill my heart
While my word-wings catch the wind and help me
Float aloft untethered, unbound by time and space.
Ascending I compose. Composing I ascend.
Till beauty and music and words cease…
I cannot help but try.

 

Immerse Me

Immerse me, O Lord,
In you… In you… In you…
I wither like an uprooted plant
Aching for a few drops of moisture and
The womb of soil around my roots.
I awake in the night mourning, bewildered
As I wander half aware in impassive darkness.
It enfolds me, amplifying the feel of your absence
Till sleep overcomes me again.

Immerse me, O Lord,
In you… In you… In you…
While I lie here torn away from
All I ever knew of you in me… of me in you.
Let me drown in your mercy.
Let me be rooted in your love again.
Give me rest from my wanderings
Till my solitary wakefulness becomes
Opportunity for communion instead of confusion.

Immerse me, O Lord,
In you… In you… In you…
Only you can restore.
Only you can heal.
Only you can relieve this desolation.

POEM

Posit an idea
Throw out a thought
Turn it about
Toss it up
Let the light hit it every which way
Watch it
Catch it
Smell it
Embrace it, eyes closed
Push it away
Pull it close
Massage it
Spread it out
Fill it in
Color it one shade
Change it to another
Tear it apart
Shove it together
Put it in order
Bind it into form
Hold it aloft
Examine it critically
Accept it
Offer it to someone else
Let it go
No ποιημα (“workmanship�) is complete
Until it is given away

A PSALM OF TRUST
(a paraphrase of Psalm 91)

When daylight grows dim, my heart turns to Him
In whose presence I choose to abide.
To God I will cling, for under His wings
Is a fortress in which I can hide.
No terror of night, or arrow in flight,
No disease or disaster that comes,
Can cause me to fear, for my God is near.
Thousands flee, but I will not succumb.
The wicked will fall, confirming to all
That my refuge, my Lord, can protect.
By holy command, His angels will stand,
Every harm and disaster deflect.
Not one stone, beast or snake, can cause you to shake
When you love him with heart, soul, and mind.
Put God first each day. Choose to hear and obey
With conviction, through hardships refined.
“I will answer when called,� says the Lord of us all,
“I’ll be there through all trouble and strife.
“I am here when you trust. I am faithful and just.
“My salvation infuses with life.�